So I'm just topping up on today's environmental news feed (my feed of choice is The Guardian, a nice little app that even a web dilettante like me can add to their Google home page) and two stories stand out and demand a closer look. The first states, "Met Office warns of catastrophic global warming in our lifetimes". The second say, "CO2 is green", which is less self-explanatory. In fact, it's an astonishing TV ad running in the US aimed at scuppering a cap-and-trade bill - thanks to Leo Hickman for picking this up in his blog.
What I notice is that while reading them, I get that creeping feeling up the back of my neck and round to my jaw, and the sinking in my shoulders. I'm physically cringing. Not very much. But it's there.
And which had the biggest cringe effect? I can't be certain, but I'd say that CO2 denialists make me more unhappy than the Met Office's truly dire research.
So I wonder: what can I learn from this?
That I'm more comfortable with things which reinforce my existing world view, however awful? Perhaps.
That we need to pull together now and use all our considerable intelligence and organising power to avert the worst and prepare a soft landing, and that I'd rather the US pro-CO2 lobby would 'get with the programme'.
I'm happier owning up to that as a reason!
The other thing I notice is that these cringe-related feelings are not empowering and motivating. What I plan to do now is
- forget I read either story,
- remind myself of some of my reasons to be cheerful,
- review my to-do list, and
- plunge into productive work.
Does that make me a denialist too?